Going Thru the Motions

Since I'm Buffy, here I am singing. ;-)

Reegan threw a nice little temper tantrum this morning. Fortunately, I stayed surprisingly calm despite my moodiness. She was in her high chair holding the container of Puffs (little fruit things) and she started to get mad about something and started flinging her arm around. So before the entire container ended up on the floor, I took it away and put the lid on before giving it back to her. Well, she didn't like that so I took it away completely. She started screaming. I took her out of her high chair, laid her on the floor in the living room to put a diaper on her and then just let her lay there and scream all she wanted. I sat calmly on the couch and read my book until she finally quieted down a few minutes later. I looked at her and said "Are you done throwing a fit?" She just stared at me. "Are you ready to eat breakfast now?" A whimpery little "yes". Ok then. At least it wasn't in a store or something. That's the first time she's really just pitched a fit because she was mad at me. And so it begins. :-)

Still haven't heard back about my application. I always worry that I'm not filling out the information correctly but at the end of the app., there was a thing that said "I have answered the questions honestly to the best of my knowledge" and I had, so that made me feel better.

Good incentive for turning off my computer: it just adds to the heat. :-P It kinda worries me that it's May and it's already this hot.

I finally finished one of the books that I started. 'Captivating'. Pretty good. Drug up some issues. I think it helped put me in the mood I'm in now but oh well. I was due for a little self-reflecting time anyway.

Tomorrow is Ro's b-day. Happy birthday, my beautiful one. You know I love you, even if you are marrying that M.A.N. ;-) *smooches*

Went to the Indy 500 on Sunday. Quite an experience in the loud and hot sort of way. :-D I was really hoping Danica would win but she came in 9th. :-( But Marco Andretti, who's only 19, came in a *very* close second so that made me happy. I like the Andrettis. And no, no one asked me to take my top off or sprayed me with water or beer. (Lucky for them.....) I was sitting right below where a beer can landed and got hit while walking by a french fry or something. But no major problems. Hanging out with Nolesie-kins was fun.

Now I'm house sitting for some people from CPC this weekend. And going to the zoo. And going to Dave Matthews. Yeah, I'll just sleep when I'm dead. Haha.

I still feel a bit disconnected from everything and I'm still not sure why and it's beginning to bother me. I wonder if I need to get away from everything for a minute? Anybody know of a monastery around here that I could escape to? That would be sweet.

The fight over on MySpace with Mr. "I Can Judge the World" is over. At least for me. The guy is such a jerk. "Yes, I have removed the plank from my eye and can now see clearly to remove the speck from my brother's." Yeah, okay. You keep telling yourself that. I'm fairly certain he was being condescending to me because he saw I'm 21. So since he likes using Bible verses so much, I threw 1 Timothy at him. lol. Crystal said she was proud of me for being humble and I was like, "That's only because I'm not saying everything I'm thinking. Not lowering myself to his level and all." But I basically told him that it's people like him who make me ashamed and embarrassed to be a Christian and that I wouldn't be returning to his site. The end. *shrug* He made me so mad though and not just because he was acting condescending to me. The whole thing. I told Maurice that nothing makes me cuss like Christians. ;-)

Hmm......I guess that's about it. Hope you all had a fabulous Memorial Day weekend.

Blessings and courage!

Which of the X-Men Are You?

You Are Rogue

You're reluctantly special. In fact, you long to be normal. You consider your powers to be a curse, and something you can't control. Powers: absorbing other people's memories and abilities, weakening and killing people with your touch

Which of the X-Men Are You?

Now I'm Buffy?

I'm Buffy.

Crystal is Willow.

Jon is Xander.

Maurice is Giles.

Ro is Dawn.

Dave is Oz.

Ron is Spike.

We still need an Anya and a Tara. And an Angel. *taps chin* Who can be my Angel?

Crystal and I sang 'Walk Thru the Fire' with her guitar. And some KT Tunstall. Then we went on a shoe hunt in Wal-mart. And chocolate. Ice feels *good*. Maurice's living room is the Hellmouth. I like swinging. Waaay too much info.

Bored now. ;-)

How Do I Get Into These Fights?!

Thanks a lot Gregor! :-)

So that thread that I posted about the porn protest? Yeah, it's turned into a knock-down, drag-out fight between the members of the message board I frequent and the blog owner and one of his friends. Only he's decided to mainly come after me for some reason. *smirks* Probably because of my age.

It's Liz: The Sequel. At least he isn't randomly bringing Michael Moore into it. *eye roll*

As Crystal said, I ain't claiming this fool.

Vampires Against Garlic Sandwichs

I may be a Buffy/Angel geek but at least I don't believe I'm a vampire.

Steak n' Shake Stalker: The Beat Goes On

*GROAN*

So, tonight Sheryl, Crystal and I went swing dancing again. A ton of people that we knew were there. Don and Cheryl Bartemus were there again, with Ron and Beverly Page. They were precious! (*wink wink*) I barely remembered anything from the last time so I got a crash course refresher right at the end of the lesson. Eee-gads. Luckily, I think I managed to only step on one person's foot the whole night. (Sorry Ben!)

Notes to Crystal:

"I've been initiated!"
"Jazz hands!"
"I've got a little extra colonge...."
"Start walking!" "Just keep moving and keep your head low!"
Stupid drunk guys hitting on us.

I definitely wished my brother was there. He's a good dancer and was able to teach me some fun moves last time. I danced with Chris once, Doug a few times, David once, Ben a few times. Then we got to the last song and I was just standing to the side watching. There were a few couples that I could've just stood and watched and been perfectly happy. They were *good*! But then this guy comes over and asks me to dance. I figured it's a "It's the last dance, she's the closest available girl" type thing. So we're dancing and chatting. Then the song ends and I'm thinking that's that when he sits and motions for me to sit too. This was my first clue that this might be more than a dance. The band did an encore and we danced to that and then we sit and talk some more. Finally he gets around to asking if I want to grab something to eat in the little diner that's connected. I said sure. He was a nice enough guy and to be honest, I was a little curious to see where this was going. (Though my suspicions ended up being right.) So it's me, him and his younger brother who was a sweetie and we're all just sitting and talking. But the whole time I'm thinking, "Yeah, this ain't going far." He dropped the f-bomb a couple of times, which doesn't bother me really but it was in casual conversation where I was kinda like, "Okay and the reason for that was?" Then he starts telling this story about seeing two girls get into a cat fight and the one girl ripping the other's shirt off. *eye roll*

Luckily we weren't there for too long. We're getting ready to leave and he asks for my number. I try to duck it by cracking jokes about how I don't believe in phones and all this. Unfortunately, he was a persistent little bugger. So I ended up giving him my cell phone number. I know! Whatever was wrong with me the night of the Steak n' Shake Stalker was apparently going wonky tonight too. But I didn't get the creepy stalker vibe *and* he's the type that'll forget about me the next cute girl that comes walking by. He did walk me to my car, so that earned him a couple of points. On the whole, this night was a reminder of why I don't date.

This Made Me Furious

http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=18289974&blogID=123092096&indicate=1

This is exactly what I mean when I say I have a hard time loving other Christians.

Cantata Songs I Loved

Before Crystal beats me up for picking on cantata so much...... ;-)

He Will Carry Me

I call, You hear me
I’ve lost it all
And it’s more than I can bear
I feel so empty

You’re strong
I’m weary
I’m holdin’ on
But I feel like givin’ in
But still You’re with me

chorus:
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will
Ever need
And He will carry me

I know I’m broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You’re always with me

chorus

And even though I feel so lonely
Like I’ve never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you’d see me through
The storm

chorus

How Great Is Our God

The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead Three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Name above all names
Worthy of all praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God (x2)

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God (x3)


Majesty (Here I Am)

Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

You Are God Alone

You are not a god
Created by human hands
You are not a god
Dependant on any mortal man
You are not a god
In need of anything we can give
By Your plan, thats just the way it is

Chorus:
You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
Your are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

You're the only God
Whose power none can contend
Youre the only God
Whose name and praise will never end
Youre the only God
Whos worthy of everything we can give
You are God
And thats just the way it is

Repeat Chorus

Bridge:
Unchangeable
Unshakable
Unstoppable
Thats what You are

Happy, Shiny Christianity

I miss choir. I do. It was all I could do not to run up to Eric and beg to rejoin. The songs they sang were wonderful. However, I'm starting to notice a trend with these songs. They're all "yeah, I'm getting my butt kicked but isn't Jesus great?" I don't know about you but I don't know many people who truly have that attitude when they're going through a trial. Maybe I'm just a bad Christian. ;-)

So I left CPC, singing and in a fairly good mood. Then I got to the Dwelling Place and reality hit. Life isn't shiny and happy. Christianity doesn't make everything better. To be honest, knowing that Jesus is there doesn't make everything better most of the time. Most of the time, it makes it harder. Because then you're left with the "whys". Why the hell did You let this happen?

It doesn't matter how many Bible verses or sayings you throw at these things. After awhile, it just gets old. You can only hear "God works for good with those who love him" so many times before you want to scream "If He's working for good, why didn't He stop it in the first place?" Why is it that the words of the following song can seem so true one minute and so cliche the next?

I call, You hear me
I’ve lost it all
And it’s more than I can bear
I feel so empty

You’re strong
I’m weary
I’m holdin’ on
But I feel like givin’ in
But still You’re with me

chorus:
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will
Ever need
And He will carry me

I know I’m broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You’re always with me

chorus

And even though I feel so lonely
Like I’ve never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you’d see me through
The storm

chorus

Does He really carry us? Because it sure doesn't feel like it sometimes. Sometimes I think that I'm just stumbling around in the dark, grasping. I told Jenn today, I'm so sick of seeing my girl friends hurt like this. It makes me sad and angry. Where are the champions? Where are the men who don't use and abuse? Why aren't there more of them?

I don't know about you but my Christianity isn't happy and shiny. Is it all pain and sorrow? No. But anyone who tells you that life will be easier once you're a Christian is full of crap. Jesus said His yoke is easy but He also said pick up your cross. Right now, my cross is simply covered in questions.

Taking Care of Those He Loves

So I went to cantata. Twice. It was soooo good. But there was one thing that bugged me. During one of the testimonies, this couple was talking about how their family had been saved from a fire and at the end, the wife said something along the lines of, "This is just another example of God taking care of those He loves."

Okay.

I know, I know. It's just one of those things that we've been taught and it sounds all good and Christiany and she didn't mean it the way my mind processed it. However, my first thought when she said it was "As opposed to all the people He doesn't love?" I know why we as Christians say it. Because it makes us feel safe and like God is watching over us and is going to protect us. But what must that sound like to the person that God didn't "protect"? What does that sound like to the person who *did* lose a child to a fire? What does that sound like to the person who's wife left them and now feels as though their life has been blown to crap? What does that sound like to the person who was sexually abused or raped or who's husband beat them? It sounds like God doesn't love them. "Well, He didn't protect me in that situation and He let this and this happen, so He must not love me. Or just not as much as He loves this person over here."

It also makes it sound like God is playing favorites or that there are people in the world that He doesn't love. Whether we like it or not, we are *all* created in His image. It's just that some of us choose to ackowledge that fact. It's like a parent who has a bunch of kids and some of them want nothing to do with their parent. Does that mean the parent loves them any less than the other kids? Or doesn't love them at all? No.

As Christians, we really have to be careful with what we say. Because things that sound good to us and make sense to us don't always make sense to those who haven't been in church. All of the people who've been in church awhile knew what that lady meant. But if there had been someone there who had lost a child in a fire and didn't have the church lingo down (or is like me and thinks too much), that could have been very damaging to their spiritual journey.

I personally am trying to work on getting Christian-ese out of my vocabulary. It's not easy but the last thing I want is to hurt someone by using some cliche "in-group" phrase.

*sigh*

Stupid hormones.

Third Time's the Charm

I hope.

Application has been sent. Now we just wait and see.

All You Need Is Love.....Right?

Love God and love others. Those are the two greatest commandments that Jesus gave. Unfortunately, that also means loving those who are hard to love.

'Enemy' is a strong word to me. It takes quite a bit for someone to become my enemy. But even if someone does get to that point, I'm supposed to love them too. In a lot of ways, this is a hard concept. But to me, there is something even harder at times: loving other people in the Church.

There are quite a few people who I would love to tell to sit down and shut up. They don't speak for the rest of Christians, despite they seem to have appointed themselves the spokesperson. Every Christian doesn't believe that you had to vote for Bush in order to still be a Christian. Every Christian doesn't believe that what happened on 9-11 or that Hurricane Katrina were God's judgements on the US/homosexuals/anyone you want to make a scapegoat. And when I say that I'm a Christian, part of me *hates* being associated with the people who have said these things.

But because Jesus commanded it, I'm supposed to love them.

I'm supposed to love the guy who gets on tv and makes the rest of us look like bigots and idiots. I'm supposed to love the people in the churchs who have so obviously missed the point of Jesus' message. I'm supposed to love the people who think that they are the only one's who are right and that everyone else is going to Hell. And when I critisize these people, I have to make sure that I am critisizing in love. Not out of anger or malice. This can be a point where I stumble over my own tongue.

Often my "love" turns to frustration. (Though a quick humility check usually takes care of that.) I don't understand why people can't see the damage they are doing. I don't understand why people who carry "God hates fags" signs can't see how this directly goes against the second greatest commandment. (Love *others*! Others! Not "other Christians" or "other people like you". This does not come with a list of exceptions!) I don't understand the people who want to keep "non-believers" out of church because it "looks bad" to have them there. Then these same people turn around and welcome the man who is filled with greed or the woman whose pride is worn like a badge of honor and you never hear a rebuke out of them. These are the people that I have trouble loving.

Guess we all have our faults. :-)

The Gift

Today was the last day of pre-school and the lesson for the day was about Dorcas. Dorcas was a lady who sewed clothing for poor people and gave it to them. She died, so all the people that loved her called for Peter, one of Jesus' disciples, to come and see what he could do. He prayed and she was brought back to life.

In Sunday school and in these classes, we teach the kids that miracles like being brought back to life were good things. Everyone was happy, including the person who had been brought back. But would they really have been happy?

Picture that. You have been dead for who knows how long. In most of the Bible stories, it was usually at least a day. Then suddenly you're brought back to this earth. Would you be happy about that? I mean, yeah living life can be fun. But when it's over, I want it to be over. I don't want to think that I can finally rest and then be jolted back into this life. If you had been dead, you now have to re-adjust to life. Back to the struggles and hurt and limitations that come with living here. If I was Dorcas or Lazurus or any of those people, I might react more like Buffy.

All the joy life sends.
Family and friends.
All the twists and bends.
Knowing that it ends.
Well, that depends.

On if they let you go.
On if they know enough to know
That when you've bowed
You leave the crowd

There was no pain, no fear no doubt,
'Til they pulled me out of Heaven.

So that's my refrain.
I live in Hell, 'cause I've been expelled from Heaven.
I think I was in Heaven.

And was it in the best interest of the person brought back or was it pure selfishness? I'm sure Dorcas was just thrilled to come back and sew more clothes, especially since I don't think she was a young woman. Lazurus was brought back just to have to watch his good friend die a little while later. I wonder what their thoughts were? Would that have been a gift to them? Or does it even matter?

That Thing

Girls you know you better watch out
some guys, some guys are only about
that thing, that thing, that thing

It's been three weeks since you've been looking for your friend
The one you let hit it and never called you again
'Member when he told you he was 'bout the Benjamins
You act like you ain't hear him then gave him a little trim
To begin, how you think you really gon' pretend
Like you wasn't down then you called him again
Plus when you give it up so easy you ain't even fooling him
If you did it then, then you probably f*** again
Talking out your neck sayin' you're a Christian
A Muslim sleeping with the gin
Now that was the sin that did Jezebel in
Who you gon' tell when the repercussions spin
Showing off your ass 'cause you're thinking it's a trend
Girlfriend, let me break it down for you again
You know I only say it 'cause I'm truly genuine
Don't be a hardrock when you're really a gem
Babygirl, respect is just a minimum
N****s f***ed up and you still defending them
Now Lauryn is only human
Don't think I haven't been through the same predicament
Let it sit inside your head like a million women in Philly, Penn.
It's silly when girls sell their soul because it's in
Look at where you be in hair weaves like Europeans
Fake nails done by Koreans
Come again
Come again, come again, come again, come again

Guys you know you better watch out
Some girls, some girls are only about
That thing, that thing, that thing

The second verse is dedicated to the men
More concerned with his rims and his Timbs than his women
Him and his men come in the club like hooligans
Don't care who they offend popping yang like you got yen
Let's not pretend, they wanna pack pistol by they waist men
Cristal by the case men, still in they mother's basement
The pretty face, men claiming that they did a bid men
Need to take care of their three and four kids men
They facing a court case when the child's support late
Money taking, heart breaking now you wonder why women hate men
The sneaky silent men the punk domestic violence men
The quick to shoot the semen stop acting like boys and be men
How you gon' win when you ain't right within
How you gon' win when you ain't right within
How you gon' win when you ain't right within
Come again
Come again, come again, come again, come again

Girls you know you better watch out
Some guys, some guys are only about
That thing, that thing, that thing

Guys you know you better watch out
Some girls, some girls are only about
That thing, that thing, that thing

Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Holiness

So, I haven't really been on here as much. I'm still not sure why. I just kinda feel listless about the whole blogging thing. Unfortunately, that also carried over into my INtake blog. All the bloggers got an email from the guy in charge telling us that if we didn't start blogging and getting the prompts done (at the very least), then we needed to let him know if we didn't want to blog anymore. Haha, oops. So now I have to blog about the bird flu. :-P

This weekend is gonna be mad crazy busy. Ro and I are baking cookies for Jenn's bridal shower in a bit. Then I'm going with Crystal to a concert. Tomorrow I'm gonna try to help Sheryl get stuff ready for her graduation party before I have to leave to set up for the bridal shower. Jenn has the most disorganized bridal party *ever*! It took us until about Wed. to say, "hey, that shower that we kept thinking was so far off is in three days! Maybe we should figure some stuff out." And then we couldn't find our lists from our brainstorming session so we didn't know who was in charge of what and....yeah. Poor Jenn. I hope you aren't reading this honey! I swear we're getting it pulled together. :-) So that's tomorrow. Then right after the shower is Sheryl's graduation party. Eee-gads!

Sunday we have church and Sheryl's actual graduation. That should be interesting. I've never been to a real school graduation. Oh yeah, and Mother's Day. Hmm.....maybe I should figure out a gift for my mom. Haha. This is so bad.......

Monday is the last day of pre-school. We aren't going to have a couple of our kids due to vacations and stuff. Hopefully it will be an easy last day. But even if it's not, I'll have a whole week to recuperate because I have the week off. I was supposed to be in D.C. but due to various things, it got cancelled. And Reegan's grandparents are still coming up so Valorie said I could just take the week off. Woo-hoo! Paid vacation! Now hopefully the weather will warm up a bit so I can enjoy it.

I've been reading a book called 'Practicing the Sacred Art of Listening'. It's really good. I can't tell if the author is a Christian or not because she'll talk about God or the Spirit but in a really non-commital way. Maybe she's New Agey. Whatever the case, it's been really good. It gives different practices that you can do to improve the quality of your listening and through that, improve your relationships. If people feel like they are really being listened to and understood, it's the closest thing to feeling loved. There are also different types of conversation and the reason anger and confusion results in a lot of conversations is one or more of the people doesn't recognize the type of conversation that they are in, so they don't follow the "rules" of that particular type of discourse. And that can lead to them feeling misunderstood or making an inappropriate remark or something. It's kinda weird because I can think back to conversations and situations where this has happened either with me or the person I was talking with. Even on Maurice's message board I can see it, which you wouldn't think since there's time to think between what someone posts and you posting in response.

I'm still trying to finish 'God's Politics'. I keep putting it off because it's kind of an exhausting read for me. I don't understand politics so I have to really concentrate on some of the stuff he says.

I was at College Park on Monday night. It was the last time I got to see Hannah before she left. :-( She's off to Germany for a year. We were there when the dance practice for cantata was going on so I got to watch that. I know Shane and Josh will laugh but I really do miss cantatas. They are so much fun. The dancing and the music and all of it. But I guess I'm past the cantata stage of my life. :-) Kate Shaunessy (butchered that name) was there. She's one of the dancers. She came up and gave me a hug and asked if I was doing VBS this year. I said I hadn't talked to Kels but I would call her and see what was up. So now I'm doing VBS. :-D Drama and music. Woo-hoo!

I was also at CPC on Friday right after the Men of Purity conference let out for the night. It was *weird* being one of 5 females in the entire building. I walked in and saw all men and thought, "oh, crap. I forgot about that conference." Talk about my worst nightmare. I quickly sought out Debbie and we hid in the office for a bit. Then we ventured out and I just felt like I should be wearing a mumu. These men all just heard this talk on purity and I probably looked like a walking temptation sign or something. "This is what not to lust after" or something. lol. But I got to see Jack and Brian and Isaiah. Debbie and I had a cook out with Matt and Josh and Josh's girlfriend Amanda. That was fun.

The Dwelling Place has been kinda crazy the past couple of weeks. Lots of random visitors and our regulars have been at conferences and sick and stuff. Hopefully we'll get back to "normal" this week.

Ok, I should probably go get ready for my day. Ro and I have to bake. Pray we don't burn her house down. :-D

Yet Another Random Survey

Have you Ever...?
Played Spin the Bottle?:	No
Toilet Paper someone's house:	We were going to but I think my friend's mom stopped us from leaving
Played Poker with money:	Change, maybe
Gone swimming in a white T-shirt:	Yup
been tickled so hard you couldn't talk:	Yes. Grrrr. I hate being tickled.
like someone but never told them:	Mine is a silent love ;-)
went camping:	Oh, the stories. I should post those on here some time
had a crush on your broher's friend:	I was married to one of them! :-D
walk in the rain without an umbrella:	Um, yeah. And sang and danced and run......
told a joke that NObody thought was funny:	Haha, sure
been in a talent show:	I am my own talent show
started laughing at someone's bedtime:	What?!
worn somthing your mom didn't appove of:	Erm......yes
been to a nude beach:	Not yet ;-)
drank jack daniels:	I have a feeling it's going to be one I don't like
cursed in a church:	*snicker* In front of the head pastor and church facillitator too :-D
been called a slut for kissing someone:	No, but that's only because no one knows! Hahaha!
burnt yourslef with a curling iron/straightner:	What girl hasn't?
wanted to be a police officer:	For about a minute
dumped someone:	No. I've had to give guys the "let's just be friends" talk but we weren't dating at the time
been hit on by someone too old:	*scowls* All. The. Time!
wanted to be a model:	Wanted to be? Shoot, I *was* one!
bought lottery tickets:	No
made out in a car:	No
cried during a movie:	There are three movies that I have cried at. The Passion, Hotel Rwanda and Crash
wanted something you couldn't have:	Who hasn't?
had sex on the beach:	Ok, not as romantic as it sounds. Think about it. Sand in places you really don't want it?
had the drink sex on the beach:	Not yet
seen someone shoplift:	I think so
hung up on someone:	*groan* Yes and then got mocked for my dramatic exit.
yelled at you pet:	I yell at my parents dog all the time
bought a thong when the casheir was a guy:	No, but only because I don't wear thongs.
tried to strip when drunk:	*whistles and looks away*
gotten seasick:	Nope
had a stalker:	Yeah, that was a good time! *eye roll*
played a prank on somone that had them really scared:	*evil laugh*
been embarassed by one of your family:	Um, yes
felt bad about eating meat:	Not really
protested:	Marched around with a sign? No
been to an island:	Oh yeah
been in love:	*sigh*
ate jus because you were bored:	Yeah, that's a really bad habit of mine.
looked at something everybody thought was ugly and said "aww":	Tee-hee
Screamed in a library:	Heh, no
Made out with a stranger:	I should just go up to some random guy and kiss him. That would wig everyone out
Been Dumped:	I ain't givin anyone the chance
Wished a part of you was different:	Yup. Why can't I just be happy with my body?
asked a guy to dance:	Nope
been asked out by a really hot guy:	Jon's pretty foine! ;-)
laughe so hard you cried:	Hehehe!!!!!! I usually end up having to sit on the floor too, so then it's just a total spectacle
went up to a complete stranger and started talking:	Um, yeah
been sunburned:	Seems I get burnt about once a year
kicked a guy in the nuts for being a pervert:	No, but not because I haven't been tempted
threw up in school:	Nope. The only thing I remember doing is getting my pinky caught in one of the rings on my binder when I was closing it and then Renee and I wrote a poem about it
recieved an anonymous love letter:	Yes. Creepy
had to wear something you hated:	......*blinks*......who hasn't?
been to a luau:	Not a real one
saw your ex and wanted to kick his ass:	I've seen an ex-something that I've wanted to hurt......but he wasn't a boyfriend
cursed in front of your parents:	Tee-hee!
been in a commerical on tv:	Not yet!
watched a movie that made you miss your ex:	Um, no
been out of the country:	Yeah
been honked at by some guy when you were walking down the sidewalk:	It used to be a ritual when I walked to Wendy's from Firm 57 for lunch. Almost every single day, I got honked at.
won at pool:	Heck no!
went to a party where you were the ony sober one:	Yup
went on a diet:	Helloooo South Beach!
been lost out to sea:	Nope
cheated on your bf:	Never
been cheated on:	Never
tanned topless:	Alright, what pervert guy made this survey up?
been attacked by seagulls:	?!?!
been searched in an airport:	Me and another Liberty student, oddly enough. That was pretty funny
been on a plane:	Um, yeah
been pants-ed:	*grumbles*stupid little brothers*grumbles* Not that I didn't pants him right back......
thown a shoe at someone:	People, spiders......
broke someone's heart:	Oh yeah, that's me. A real heartbreaker
sung in the shower:	"I'll never tell......"
bought something way too expensive:	*groan* yes
done something really stupid that you still laugh about:	three words: Chicago toll booth. Though my stupidity *did* save us 80 cents :-D
been walked in on when you were dressing:	Yes
ran out of a movie theatre because you were too scared of the movie:	LOL! No
been kicked out of the mall:	Noooo.......
ben mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back:	Just about any time I'm mean. Haha. I'm such a softie
been given a detention on the worst day that you could get one:	Never got detention
done something stupid when you were drunk:	Uh, yeah
fell off your roof:	Scared of heights
pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up with someone:	Uh, no
had a deer jump in fron of your car:	No
threated someone witha water gun:	Oooh, we should all have a big water gun fight!
Can you....
Unwrap a starburst with your tounge:	I dunno
sing:	Mmm.....kinda
open your eyes underwater:	No. Ow
eat whatever you want and not have to worry:	Ha! I wish!
ice skate:	I've only been three times and I'm ok if I can hold someone's hand. Otherwise, it's the wall for me!
sing in front of a crowd:	*gulp* No
whistle:	Yup
be a bitch at times:	:-
do thirty pull ups:	I can't do *one* pull up, ok?
walkin in really high heals:	Not really. I can but I look goofy
eat super spicy foods:	No
skateboard:	I about busted my butt the first time I tried
sleep with the lights on:	I can if I have to but I prefer not to
mulititask:	Heck yeah!
touch your nose with your tounge:	No
fall asleep easily in the car:	Depends on how tired I am
do the cotton eye joe:	Do the what now?
play ddr and not fall:	I don't fall but I don't do well either
surf:	Never tried
fit in your locker:	Never had a locker
do a split:	I used to. Not so much anymore
taste the difference between pepsi and coke:	Yeah

My Epitaph

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Good or Perfect?

I was thinking the other day, as I often do. ;-) I forget what the thought process was that led to this but I started thinking about Heaven and our misconceptions about it and something occured to me. We always say that Heaven will be perfect but is that what the Bible says about it? Because we say that the garden of Eden was perfect but that isn't what God called it. God said it was good.

Perfection implies completion, never to need change or improvement. Good implies that there could be better. That there is room to evolve to something else. And since it's going to be a new heavens and new earth (i.e. take care of our earth because we're coming back!), does that mean we're just going to go back to an Edenic state? (Don't mind me as I make up new words.)

If any of you pastor types or just generally smart people would care to weigh in here (*cough*Rich*cough*), I really would like to hear someone's opinion who knows more about this than me. :-D

"I guarantee a great big smile"

Reasons to smile

* MOPS is over for the summer! One job down, one to go.

* My car is working (knock on wood!)

* I have two checks going into the bank.

* It's Friday!

* I have both dresses for the weddings I'm in and the one that needs altered isn't going to cost much, if at all.

* I'm listening to 'Once More, With Feeling'! (Thanks Crystal!)

* I got to see my best friend from elementary school yesterday. We went "bar hopping" for her 21st.

* It's a b-e-a-u-tiful day!

* Only two weeks of pre-school left.

* I have Unconditional Chocolate ice cream in my freezer. (If you ever want to make my day, find that ice cream. :-D )

* I have nothing that I have to do tomorrow. Which means I can do all those things that I need to do but haven't had time for. (i.e. laundry, washing the car, cleaning the house, organizing stuff)

* Heck, I'm alive, have more than enough food and clothes, and I have people who love me. That alone is reason enough to smile. :smooches:

That's My Sister You're Talking About!

Oy vey!

Dora Conditioning

I've Got A Theory

So everyone is freaking out over MySpace. "It's dangerous." "Kids are giving out too much information." "There are pedophiles everywhere on it." The news and parents are making it out to be the people who began MySpace's fault. My theory?

It's the parents. The parents are the ones who didn't teach their kids how to be safe on the internet. The parents are the ones who don't know what their kids are up to. The parents are the ones who are too busy to moniter what their children are doing.

It is not the fault of the people who started and work on MySpace. I have an account there and it's been a great way of reconnecting with old friends from school and work. But like in most other areas of life, there's a smart way and a dumb way to do it.

MySpace has tons of options to keep your profile more safe.

* Make your profile private so that only your "friends" can see it.
* Don't friend people you don't know.
* Don't agree to meet people you don't know and if you do, make it a group thing.
* Don't put personal information on. Leave out the names of places and people.
* Remember that anyone can sound fun, cute and charming online.

Another complaint about MySpace is that it gives kids a place to exhibit "lewd, criminal or even just tasteless behavior". I hate to break it to you but if your child is going to post half naked pictures or threaten someone, there are a lot more ways to do that than just MySpace.

MySpace is a great way to build community. I know it might sound kooky but real friendships and relationships are being built on this site. The internet can be a wonderful tool, when used properly.

So parents, take some responsibility. Talk to your kids are what is and is not ok on the internet. After you talk about it, enforce it. I'm not saying give your children no privacy and demand every detail but keep an eye on things. For starters, you could go create an account yourself and friend them. :-)

Move Your Feet

I'm a geek! And I'm ok with that. :-D